Empty

Empty
No longer living
Never a trace of hope

Nevery a light of wanting
You think you can open your doors
The privacy you have been keeping to your self
ONLY YOU

But you think with this person it will
Never end
Intrunal love

You must be kidding
Right........
That door slams right in your face

You try and reach out seeing if there is a rope to cling onto
but all you get is air
falling down into a pit of nothing
Why did this have to happen to something so beautiful
So pure

Just wanting to feel love
Just wanting to trust again.
But NEVER can again

All I ever do is waking up screaming and crying
All I every do is just cry

wong turn

Looking through the window of life
Where are people supposed to go?
How are we supposed to act?

Were we boren
To just satify other peoples pleasures?
What if we dont go though with the
PLANNED TIME  LINE

What would happened if I just stood up and said
FUCK YOU!
Would everything come crashing down?
Sometimes I think I am just too scared to change

To scared to pass though that box
The box that will make me different

But I need to escape this bull shit
Need to get away for a while
Done!

Drunken stooper

HAHA
well thats a funny name
but its a funny game

never know where you'll go
and you'll never know

try hard not to see but
its too hard not too look

twisted love

tiwsted love
knowing at any moment it could

END

not wanting it to end
Twisted love

Wondering how you got here
Wanting more

Twisted love

child

child can you hear me!
Child ANSWER!!!
Child are you still awake

child why wont you talk
Child you need to answer
Child i am worried about u

Child where is your father
Child lets get you out of here
Child dont say no this is not healthy
child listen to me

Child i'm going to save you
Child stop crying
Child you're going to be okay
Child i'm going to get you away from here

Child don't stop breathing
Child we need to go
Child, Child, Child



In a flash that child could be gone, never let go
never let anyone do this to your child
never lay a hand on your child or any child

they are like a flower
Dont let them die

CHILD!!! CHILD!!!!
gone
CHILLLLDDDD!!!!
why did you have to go though this?
What did you do to get this?

Joy

Joy
Joy thats
what i get from being with you
how you get under my skin

love
   body
      soul

Joy from
TOUCH
LAUGH
SMILE
SMELL
LOVE

stereotype

A bum
A pot head
An e-tard
Call me whatever you want
bit I know deep down inside you had the same
joyous life, carefree, no hate, struggles
but they are over done by happiness of the heart

Stereotype me as your worse nightmare
but you know you love me with all the peace your body can hold
building up from down in the burning pit of fire, burning inside you

A bum

A pot head
An e-tard
say all these names to me
they make me feel sorry for the
Real
Cold
Hard
Stereotypes that are really out there.
Do you wish you had a better life?
Do you wish you could really live in peace with yourself?

An e-tard is not a hippy
A pothead is not a hippy
a bum is not a hippy

A hippy is someone that can see the better things in life
that you run pass for a shoe sale,
for a boy, a girl, or a dog,
you never get the real joys in life.
you never get to make your own life cause people are making it for you
will you ever see
will you ever feel
will you ever take one moment out of your busy day to feel for your self?
TRY IT

Left

Left
you left me!
you hurt me
you don't know how much you hurt me

My heart will grow
                         STRONGER

Light me life

Light me Life!
light me life
light me a little love
with a lighter in hand
and a heart that doesn't want to be hurt

Flesh comes to close to the flame.
sizzle

Light me life
Light me away
make me forget
make me better with a lighter in hand

Safety over love
but love feels so good on my flesh!
stumble!
rocks in the way of the true fire

Love or Not

Love! or Not?

Will you
              love me forever?
Will you
                             sweep me off my feet?
Will you
                     make me smile?
Will you
                                   make me laugh?

Yes? No?
I need to know
    I want to know

                                          Forever my love

Just like the word hate,  
                                                    LOVE
is a strong word that means a lot,

                     SO
                           WILL
                                   YOU
                                           LOVE
                                                    ME
                                      FOREVER
                                OR 
                          WILL
                    YOU
               LET
                                                              ME
                                                                            GO????      

Mad

Mad
It's mad
To think you're, your own self
It's mad
To be your own self,
not copying any one person
not stealing a style
Just being your own plain self
IT'S MAD
Aren't you?

Robots and masks

Life, Twisted
in ways you're attracted to
but in ways your not

Being twisted,
is it a state of mind?
or
is it just how you really are?

Who are we?
some sexed up robot?
Some kind hearted pussy?
I guess we shall never know
But look at your self for a second

Is this really how you wanted it?
Are you really happy?
or
Is it just a mask you put on,
everyday so you don't have to show,
people your feelings? Emotions?

Hight

The high is great
The sniff is even better
But the coming down is
HORRIBLE!

Falling down the hole,
Devils hand
Nails digging in

Pupils growing with
The speed of my heart
Jaw gets tight
F-I-D-G-E-T
Move slowly
As if I'm in jello
Smell beauty in my body
My soul lifts
T-O-U-C-H
Fingers explore
S-O-F-T
Fingers dig into skin
H-E-A-T overwhelms

Wanting more
Heat hurts but so addicting
F-E-E-L
Water dripping
Hands navigate
Turn on water, Drink

A moment of pure A-W-E
Emotions come out
Eyes roll back
Gears turn....back and forth
Look into life before you
DONE

Gave up my life for you

NEVER AGAIN!

i love you.

but i will never see you

AGAIN!!!!

But how I miss you so

the feeling you gave me

The blood

Surpassing the sore
surpassing reality
Making the mouth awe
in pain beauty is made
mouth drops, blood flowing
Red Rubies, color of love
never looking right, controll
you'll never be the same.

Clean up, dry off
never looking at the past
cant
pain come back
not a friend
not wanted

Relax nothing to get worked up about
CALM

your eyes are camera's

You're eyes are the portal
The portal into the future
Take what you want from it

A Fresh New Start

Have you ever though you would be alone?
Feeling as if you dont know where to turn?

Its like being in a hall of a thousand doors.
Pick the right one and you might have a bright future.
But if you dont, what will go wrong?

i hate this feeling,
getting so close to people, opening that door into a bright light
open all the sores, than all of a sudden
SHUT!!!!!!!! right on you're face,
Leaving you stunned, in awe of that just happened.

people never get close for this reason,
Walls always up, never coming down
I wish I could find that person i can truely open up to,
expose all my secrets, trust with every fiber of my body,
i ach to tell part of my story, but i cant tell it to anyone

People come and go, but thought that crowd
will there be anyone left,
faces bluring past my eyes. but can i see a shape of a real face
a real raw face, i long for trust, i long for it.

i never thought i would have to be this bottled
never this covered.